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worried, manual labor, and I'm having a glass of wine-rambleings
My mom now needs to go to a home care facility. Apparently, she has fractured her T7, T10, T 11 and T12 and possibly to the T9 of the vertebrae. So she is in pain; having a fun trip on Darvacet. (She has had spine problems all her life). Once at the small home, they, after a month, will determine if she can live independently, back in her senior living apt. She wants to go home so badly. At first she was missing her house. Now after her second stay at the convalescent hosp, she is now calling her cute apt, home. And missing it.
So we are all (my sister and I) are a bit stressed). If she can't go back, then she will be in an assisted living thing for till she dies. To many of you with younger parents, you may not relate. But wait. It may come. Nothing worse than seeing your parent, who was once a power figure, caregiver, etc... slowly wither away. I hope she can go back home. She is 85, and needs to have a good life before the end. I lost my dad to ALS, years ago. A very sad way to go. So this, is hard. Because my only last parent, is slowing going away.
Other news: Owners are coming to visit the property next week. So we are scrambling. I today helped maintenance put redwood bark all around the complex beds, cleaned up stuff etc ( in good shoes and slacks... stupid). I forgot how I love to do this sort of thing. I just love manual labor. I find it very relaxing. I wonder if I was a slave in a past life. Maybe in ancient Greece. Anyway, it got my mind off all of this mom stuff.
I never drink alone. Don't really care for it. But I just opened a good bottle of red wine. I need it. Made some quick snacks before dinner. I may drink the whole bottle, with dinner. This mom thing is really stressing me out (subconsciously). If I get on a sex site with this wine, I may get in trouble. eep!!! I just got my first wine head rush! Any wine, just one glass, gives me a headache :(
I have to work tomorrow. :(
So we are all (my sister and I) are a bit stressed). If she can't go back, then she will be in an assisted living thing for till she dies. To many of you with younger parents, you may not relate. But wait. It may come. Nothing worse than seeing your parent, who was once a power figure, caregiver, etc... slowly wither away. I hope she can go back home. She is 85, and needs to have a good life before the end. I lost my dad to ALS, years ago. A very sad way to go. So this, is hard. Because my only last parent, is slowing going away.
Other news: Owners are coming to visit the property next week. So we are scrambling. I today helped maintenance put redwood bark all around the complex beds, cleaned up stuff etc ( in good shoes and slacks... stupid). I forgot how I love to do this sort of thing. I just love manual labor. I find it very relaxing. I wonder if I was a slave in a past life. Maybe in ancient Greece. Anyway, it got my mind off all of this mom stuff.
I never drink alone. Don't really care for it. But I just opened a good bottle of red wine. I need it. Made some quick snacks before dinner. I may drink the whole bottle, with dinner. This mom thing is really stressing me out (subconsciously). If I get on a sex site with this wine, I may get in trouble. eep!!! I just got my first wine head rush! Any wine, just one glass, gives me a headache :(
I have to work tomorrow. :(