Mourning rambleings
Jul. 20th, 2008 09:11 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cellboy1.Strange thing about this, is that I have not really broken down as yet. I know it will happen when ready.
2.When I look at pictures of Mom, I get teary eyed, and a lump in my throat, but that is it. I have cried a few times, but not major as yet. Maybe I won't? When I keep thinking I have to call her to see how she is doing, then I think, Oh. She is not there; I get a lump in my throat.
3.I feel for my sister. Since she lived near by, she did all my moms banking, taking her to Dr's etc. She certainly is feeling the void.
4. When my partner passed, I was a mess. I held on to some of his clothes for quite awhile. Every time I smelled his scent on them, I would fall apart. But that was a different type of relationship
5. I feel it building up. Maybe when we do the 2 memorial functions next month, it may happen? Or maybe during the holidays.
6. I have been through this before, with my dad, grandmother, and aunts.... this is just a strange and normal process.
2.When I look at pictures of Mom, I get teary eyed, and a lump in my throat, but that is it. I have cried a few times, but not major as yet. Maybe I won't? When I keep thinking I have to call her to see how she is doing, then I think, Oh. She is not there; I get a lump in my throat.
3.I feel for my sister. Since she lived near by, she did all my moms banking, taking her to Dr's etc. She certainly is feeling the void.
4. When my partner passed, I was a mess. I held on to some of his clothes for quite awhile. Every time I smelled his scent on them, I would fall apart. But that was a different type of relationship
5. I feel it building up. Maybe when we do the 2 memorial functions next month, it may happen? Or maybe during the holidays.
6. I have been through this before, with my dad, grandmother, and aunts.... this is just a strange and normal process.
