cellboy

This is weird. I have been thinking off an on about him for years, and more often recently. He was my first boyfriend. And it was during my coming out period. It lasted 2-3 yrs. Was not the best relationship, with my confusion of the coming out. Sorta rocky. But he was sweet. Anyway, he was to move back to his home, Sayville/Bayport, Long Island after Chevron laid him off. He missed it.

Anyway, here I am at the local grocery store staring at the varieties of cheeses, and I see this man, and a male friend shopping. I look at him, and swear it was him. But I also swear it is not him. He had the same look (very butch cute), and same mannerisms of my ex. But thinner, grayer. I was not sure. I looked several times, he did not look or acknowledge my looking at him. They disappeared down the next aisle, so I went around the other way to pass them. I said "excuse me", they sort of moved, but did not look up.
But hell. Was that him or not? Its been 23 years. And we have changed since. I then decided to go up to him and ask him. They were now at the checkout. I went next to them to unload the food, and the clerk told me this was a 15 item or less, I have too much food. So I said sorry louder than usual. He did not look up. But I noticed an old acne scar near his cheek bone, like what I somewhat remembered. I then moved to the next checkout register. They left shortly. Shit. Was that him? I moved too slow. Maybe it was him, and he saw me first, and did not want to deal with it. That's why he never looked up?
So I just posted a diddy on Craig's list, missed connections. Who knows?

Well if it was him, he loved the Eagle beer busts. So maybe he will be there. Especially if he is just visiting. Now this is going to haunt me for awhile