Why the "F" am I sometimes so closeted?

[cellboy]

1. Mark and Tony came down to look at the apt (Yes. They discussed where they would hang the sling)
2. They came into the office, and each gave me a big hug and kiss.
3. I then wonder, who saw? Did our maintenance man see?
4. Why the fuck am I so closeted?
5. In the workplace of the past I really never discussed my sex life or my lifestyle (although a few knew, and we talked freely about stuff). But I always listened to their straight needs.
6. My maintenance man today said that he went to a great club at Tahoe, and the babe waitress were hot. And he needs to get laid. He needs a girlfriend.
7. Why can't I tell him that the vacation last week was at Lazy Bear and the men were hot? And I get laid on a somewhat regular basis (that may be a bit of an exaggeration)
8. My maintenance man took me out for our Friday Mexican lunch (best on the peninsula). He asked, "What is that sticker on the back of your car?" (The leather flag sticker has been on my car for two yrs) I did not answer but changed the subject
9. Why the *F* am I so closeted?
10. I think all or some know about me, but are afraid to ask.
11. Maybe because I came out later in life, 30, and living on the mid-peninsula, I felt I had to be?
12. I am annoyed at myself
13, I am not out to my trainer (although he probably guesses, when I look at the others training)
14. I envy younger people, who really don't care what people think
15. But wait! As I am getting older I really don't care what people think about me either. So maybe there is hope? :)

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[cellboy.livejournal.com]

Actually not explaining, but reiterating how I discovered, came out etc. Some inquiring minds want to know :) But I would expect, knowing a few well, that would say, "eww, you sleep with men?". So adult isn't? This is not a big deal, but I think from now on, I will be more open. :) Happy Weekend!