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cellboyI was at 440 Castro(Daddy's) Saturday evening for Mamas Leather Walk kickoff party, and was standing up on the upper part of the bar observing the crowd. It was not a large crowd, but it was interesting watching the dynamics of the scene. How each of them interact with each other. And how they are separated into little groups. At the front of the bar as you walk in, there was some remnants of the gay softball league. Most still in uniform, and a always very good looking jock types. As I walked in I smiled at a few, and most just looked away, continuing on with their jolly conversations.
Then in the middle of the bar, is the regulars sitting, conjoiling with the bartenders. Against the opposite side of the wall, are a group of bears, cubs, and some older butch types. Each in there own click. Here even, no one, smiles back either. At the upper part of the bar was a group of us, Mamas Family, getting prepped for the festivities, food, prizes (raffle) etc.
As the evening wore on, the crowd participated in buying raffle tickets, listening to the MC and all. Yet all were in there own distinct groups. Including us. We tend to be cliquish as the rest, but I am trying to break away from this, and try to include myself into saying hi to as many out of my group as possible. Been doing this for quite awhile. At times, it is great. Nice to meet lots of people. I love my friends, we have good history together, but meeting new friends outside my realm is always a good thing. So then why does it seem that so many people put barriers around them? I know everyone is shy at first (me especially) and it is safer to be with your group. But why does it kill someone to smile?
As I walked in, I smiled at the the baseball group, not one person, it seemed acknowledged me. Do I have typhoid? I shouldn't say this but the geriatric crowd always notice me (lol). Then the bear crowd; They look, then huddle, and no smile. Am I typhoid Mary? One tends to get this at the Eagle beer busts too. Of course I know lots go there with their friends, as I do, so it is natural to be in your own group. Even at the Lone Star (Loin Stare), it is hard to "break" into the crowd. Some say it is a closed snooty bar. I don't think so. It is just a staid crowd, where everyone knows each other and so a bit closed. You know I am partial to bears, muscle bears,etc. Just to get some sort of acknowledgment, must I gain weight and grow a beard? OY! Just an observation.
Of course to be fair, I met, or had to practically stumble into the guy (maybe that's how it suppose to be done), with huge muscles, tan and very cute, and close to my age. Had to mention his arms to get his attention. He was nice, later introduced himself as I was leaving for another event (of course). Seemed nice. Actually thinking back, I think he does porn (stay away from that one :o). And I met a very handsome bear, a out of town member of the "Family" I think. Of course he has a BF (that is always the way too. OY!) Well, at least I am trying. I don't go out as often as I should, but when I do, I really want to make a point of meeting new people. Thing is, it is always hard to know what to say, and carry on a conversation at times. :o)
Well off to shower, wash my car (it rained yesterday) and off to 440 to register for todays "Leather Walk". Cheers!
Then in the middle of the bar, is the regulars sitting, conjoiling with the bartenders. Against the opposite side of the wall, are a group of bears, cubs, and some older butch types. Each in there own click. Here even, no one, smiles back either. At the upper part of the bar was a group of us, Mamas Family, getting prepped for the festivities, food, prizes (raffle) etc.
As the evening wore on, the crowd participated in buying raffle tickets, listening to the MC and all. Yet all were in there own distinct groups. Including us. We tend to be cliquish as the rest, but I am trying to break away from this, and try to include myself into saying hi to as many out of my group as possible. Been doing this for quite awhile. At times, it is great. Nice to meet lots of people. I love my friends, we have good history together, but meeting new friends outside my realm is always a good thing. So then why does it seem that so many people put barriers around them? I know everyone is shy at first (me especially) and it is safer to be with your group. But why does it kill someone to smile?
As I walked in, I smiled at the the baseball group, not one person, it seemed acknowledged me. Do I have typhoid? I shouldn't say this but the geriatric crowd always notice me (lol). Then the bear crowd; They look, then huddle, and no smile. Am I typhoid Mary? One tends to get this at the Eagle beer busts too. Of course I know lots go there with their friends, as I do, so it is natural to be in your own group. Even at the Lone Star (Loin Stare), it is hard to "break" into the crowd. Some say it is a closed snooty bar. I don't think so. It is just a staid crowd, where everyone knows each other and so a bit closed. You know I am partial to bears, muscle bears,etc. Just to get some sort of acknowledgment, must I gain weight and grow a beard? OY! Just an observation.
Of course to be fair, I met, or had to practically stumble into the guy (maybe that's how it suppose to be done), with huge muscles, tan and very cute, and close to my age. Had to mention his arms to get his attention. He was nice, later introduced himself as I was leaving for another event (of course). Seemed nice. Actually thinking back, I think he does porn (stay away from that one :o). And I met a very handsome bear, a out of town member of the "Family" I think. Of course he has a BF (that is always the way too. OY!) Well, at least I am trying. I don't go out as often as I should, but when I do, I really want to make a point of meeting new people. Thing is, it is always hard to know what to say, and carry on a conversation at times. :o)
Well off to shower, wash my car (it rained yesterday) and off to 440 to register for todays "Leather Walk". Cheers!
