weird feeling

this is not a boo hoo thing, but as you all know, my mom passed away last June. This Sunday is Mother's Day. I keep feeling I have to be somewhere this weekend (aside from my great nephews 1 yr B-day), then realize it's Mother's Day and I don't. When I did, I drove up to my mom's home, on a yearly basis, but many times I really wanted to stay home instead. Although once I did go up and visit, I was glad I did. I did my good deed. This time I am relieved I don't have to drive up for the day, but actually wish I would have to, even though I don't want to. This is a weird feeling. Not a sad thing, but just a weird feeling.
Well in any case, if you still have a parent, try to be there for them as much as you can. That opportunity may not be there someday.

I am zonked

1. My personal trainer starts school this Saturday, so he met with me last night and tonight instead of Friday and Saturday.
2. Last night he beat the hell out of me on my shoulders and triceps.
3. Today sore. Now remember that is a good thing.
4. Tonight back, and biceps.
5. I was so pooped from work yesterday and yesterdays workout, (plus my getting over a small cold and cough) that I was a bit weaker than usual.
6. So lighter weight, more reps
7. Towards the end of the workout period I was so worn, that at best, my last routein of dumbbell curls could only be efficiently managed with 20lb weights. Then later only 15lbs, then later 10lbs. But I still felt it, and my biceps were burning and exploding (it's not always the amount of weight, but proper form of the exercise and the isolation of the muscle that is key)
8. I am beat. Off for a hot bath and bed
9 Night